Parents Or Responsibility

Ever wondered how it is being a parent while being someone taking care of another being not regarding whether its a pet or a human.. Never the less, it's as hard as chipping ur own nail while doing a 360 degree back flip while holding a plate of pizza! I know its sounds ridiculous but its the truth.. Honestly,i always wondered what would it be like to have parents and how being a parent would make me a better human being.

So,i tried experimenting with children and threw their dead bodies into a pit of endless corpse!!! Muahahaha! Gosh,would u really think i would do such a thing?! OMG! Haha,actually i tried asking a few parents and get to know people at my darn "pit of hell" hostel (which my water supply is being cut off for shit reason's) and to my surprise found out that being a parent does have their little but meaningful awards.

Like the movie i just watched "Smother", the son tried to reduce his sperm count by wearing baby size undies and dip his ball's into freaking hot water! haha,silly ait? But actually,it shows that the son is having traumatic memories of his parents which are going through a bad time and lived separately.. Finally,the mother told the son.. "U are the only thing that make's me feel that i have accomplished something in this life and you resemble everything that i couldn't achieve in my life and for that i'm proud of you."

I really hope that i could feel having such parents in my life,sure.. the absents of parents wasn't important cause i got all the attention i needed from my grandparents,but how long are they gonna stay? How long do i have to make them proud of me? I know i'm their grandson and i carry the burden of my family to excel from my uncle's and aunt's which now progress even a minister! I feel like a carry the burden of the world on my shoulders... But yet,i still have time to fool around and do wasteful stuff instead of focusing on my key goals.. It's hard.. Something happen last nite,which eventually change the perspective of how i look upon myself and how i alone could change what couldn't be change.

I hope by being a better parent would bless me with even more dignity and pride to call myself a worthy human. Learning the errors of my past and rewriting the fault which has been done gives me a guideline in how to progress myself to the top of the world,one inch at a time.. Its a slow and hard process which has grant me priceless experience and each mistake i make will slowly bring me to success further in life... I hope someday, this mere child, which has nothing could be something capable of giving the equal blessing given to me by my grandparents. For that, right now, i could only pray to god to bless you each day with his light and teaching so that u can help me be a better man.

Sincerely T